today was mundane. v_v my dad drove me to school today and i bought donuts on the way for breakfast And lunch... we dont have much food in the house yet and im picky :P. i was picked up early near the end of the day since i had a bad headache and tbh i wanted to go home and work on my games.... woohoo!! i hope ill be done soon.. i went 2 the store with my sister when i got home. she insisted i get real food, though i wanted to look at the valentines n' easter items...i got a few food items to last me awhile. we r trying to keep on budget, and i think we did pretty well. ^_^ ill make sure to dress up for valentines day tomorrow, since it was encouraged for everyone to. i also prepared a small box for the person im interested in.. maybe itll go well!
valentines day!@!!!!#@!!!!! today i made sure to dress up extra. i like holidays because it gives me an excuse to be over the top with my outfits. ^_^ i saw alot of people with cute red and pink fits today. i gave out mini reeses cups to my teachers (most of them..) my crush ^_^ ^_^ ^_______^^^.....had waved at me in the hallway ! !! when i got into my math class with her she called my outfit cute and said ilooked pretty.... i had given her a heart container with some gifts inside and she had thanked me for it, im unsure if she understood the implications quite yet....she has yet to text me in regards to it...eyebrow raise. nonetheless, today was boring otherwise. my mom made me run errands with her, but its okay, cause she let me get cute puffy bug stickers, and a strawberry notepad from the dollar store!!!!!!! i decorated my computer with a bunch of stickers, and did alot of art and development. i tend to get tired very early. having no privacy or room to myself, i get overstimulated often. i get tired easily, all the time. and headaches. no doubt because i dont eat enough; not that i do it on purpose. its just hard to eat. especially with how rushed i am during school. how am i supposed to gain more calories than i burn? that sounds impossible with how much i have to walk around everyday. my brother and dad went downstairs to the vending machine, my sister and mom went outside to walk the dog. i went into the small bathroom and took the shaving razor. i wash off the soap, and i think about relapsing. but i dont end up really doing it. i have no particular reason as to why i would or wouldnt. im always overstimulated, so having control sounds nice. the idea of cutting often feels like a release and or relief; walking into an air conditioned room midsummer. ive somehow not relapsed yet. itll probably happen sometime during our stay here. im not sure how long we will be here. too long, regardless. i miss bert.