i want you to know that im awake.
i sleep alot... (-n-) my sleep schedule is all wonky. the guy constantly keeps the ebt on him so we cant go out for food without permission usually. we are moving this motel tomorrow, sunday, instead of june 1st. pretty sure its cause its cheaper or something. mom spent like an hour on the phone with him arguing. it felt a little cathartic hearing her address some of the things hes done. ive been outside quite a bit lately. we havent had internet so i havent used my computer much. im trying to be healthy. some days im doing good and some days im really not. today isnt bad. though there is a consistent aching sort of depression in the background of my head. an incessant buzzing. spending alot of time in nature. ive cried alot lately. just not being entirely numb i guess. the entire future is uncertain. im paralyzed with dread most of the time. im waiting for the moment i can finally breathe.
alt: an mspaint drawing of a girl with shoulder length magenta hair and a ponytail. she has a soft blue shirt and a long black skirt. she looks uncomfortable, although face deadpan.